Looking for Advice

I am looking for advice...

The four month mark for Everett is next Monday. That is suppose to mean that his Colic should be tapering off or almost gone... I am not seeing the signs of that yet.

I have been reading 'Happiest Baby on the Block' (thank you Janie for the suggestion) and It says that colic or fussiness can last 4 months in a regular baby so it looks like Everett technically has another month to go if I count from his corrected age.

I am getting tired. I guess it shows when I write about my frustration and tiredness. Last night Ryan told me that he was actually concerned about me and whether I am going to snap. That really hurt my feelings but at the same time I was happy he was noticing my stress levels. Ryan really does help out a lot. Once he gets home he takes Everett. At night he spends time with Everett while I do things like cleaning, making bottles, putting away laundry. It is a huge help because those tasks become very difficult with a baby permanently attached to me. Even if he is in the snugli and I have free arms. It is difficult to bend over or reach anything directly in front of me. So I am grateful for his help.

Ryan also gets up once a night with Everett and feeds him and changes his bum. Or if it is the morning feed and Everett is really fussy he will stay up with Everett in the living room and calm him.

With this much help you would think my life would be stress-free and easy yet I am still struggling.

The 10 minute intervals of sleep is getting to me. I often find myself not consoling Everett but just sitting there with him screaming at me. I have joked about flushing him down the toilet and offered to sell him last night.....so I can see Ryan's cause for concern.

However, I know that I am not going to lose it... and if I was ever feeling like I was I would take Everett over to Ryan's mom's house or give him to Ryan (if he is home). Just to put you all at ease.

I am feeling very inadequate, tired, stupid and lost.

It is like I have totally forgotten everything about babies, my mothers instinct is blank, and I worry that if I take him back to the doctors they are going to think I am nuts.

I am looking for any advice on how to soothe him, how to help him sleep at night, books to read on raising preemies, books to read on just raising infants.

Things we have tried:
Swaddling,
Laying on Side
Shushing
Soothers,
Ovol
Gripe Water
Colic Tablets
Probiotic drops
Easy Digest Formulas
Mixture of 2 formulas
Soy Formula

I am afraid to let him, cry it out because he is so young and in pain and I want to soothe him. Even during the days now he rarely sleeps without being held. He wakes up crying and though I have left him for a while to see if he will calm himself it does not work. Much on my day is spent on the couch with Everett in my arms. I can't sleep during these times because he is fussing in his sleep and I am constantly soothing by patting his back..rubbing his back, bouncing or rocking him.

I know I am going to have to just wait it out and I know it will eventually go away..but I am looking for help on what I can do in the mean time.